Right… “I just can’t get it right,” I declared a little too loudly. It slipped out from my subconscious and gave away my inner struggle. I wanted to feel and think rightly about the transition we were about to make. Instead I was anxious and unsettled. I could not make myself think and act “right”. Right is a trap I can fall into when I am not fully abiding in God’s deep love. He wants holiness, not rightness. Righteousness, not rightness. Sometimes I just want to be right, and do right.
The difference is my heart. The difference is my focus. Righteousness and holiness are outpouring of being with God. It is allowing Him to weave and work through all my emotions and frustrations. Whereas rightness is me trying to get it right on my own. Me trying to be right does not allow room for the emotions that are real. It doesn’t allow me to go through the moment. It is me trying to force the end result. Yes God wants me to have joy and allow it to be my strength, but he wants to walk with me through my anxiousness and grief.
When I am trying to just be right in all my being, I am trying to force something that is meant to be a process and journey with God. He cares for me. He is not afraid for me to get it wrong. He wants my heart to stop striving to be right and know He is God. He has me and promises not to let me go. He promises to lead me. Leading takes following and time. Small steps of obedience over giant leaps of being and doing right.
Inkblot Life 
I agree, it can be easy to fall into focusing on getting it right and making it all about our efforts instead of resting in what God has already done. It is so comforting to know that he loves and will never leave us even when we don’t get it right. Visiting from FMF.
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Amen. Thank you for visiting and sharing.
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I always own up when I’m wrong – and there are seasons I find myself there often!!!
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I agree. I struggle more with wanting to do things and think right… I have had lots of practice owning up to wrongs. So thankful for lots of people in my life that are quick to forgive.
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Amen! (Literally the only word that felt appropriate to respond.)
Amie, FMF #21
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Is my right my righteousness,
or is righteousness my right?
This could really be a mess,
and I’m in for a fight
because I think that killing kids
who are still in the womb
is something that my God forbids,
and there just isn’t room
for a ‘live and let live’ thought;
not in this case, not here,
and I more ‘must’ than I ought
to make it really clear
that righteousness is not torn,
and I will fight for those unborn.
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